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.:: The Writer ::.




.:: Him ::.

Soultari
Dancer, Lover, Brother
Commander, Teacher
Dreamer
22nd April 1986
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.:: Grumples ::.





.:: My favourite ::.

Loves Allah.
Loves Dance.
Loves Family.
Loves Cousins.
Loves The Bitches.
Loves Dancemates.
Loves Unique Maju.
Loves SNT.
Loves P.S.
Loves Dian.Dancers.
Loves Starbucks.
Loves Film.
Loves To Be Loved.
Loves You.


.:: My hatred ::.

Detest Falsehoods.
Detest War Fanatics.
Detest To Be Hurt.
Detest Being Alone.
Detest Nosy Parkers.
Detest You.





.:: Links ::.







.:: My Past ::.


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|November 2008|

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|February 2009|

|March 2009|

|April 2009|

|May 2009|


Monday, November 26, 2007
NS - so far -

IMAGINE...

I am writing this entry in mind as I cool down after my 5km run with the boys.

Unlock memories of NS Life - so far -

I can proudly say that I have served the nation with the best of my capability and with efforts – unappreciated & unknown to many – for a year and 2 months now.

I believe I have painstakingly planted and reaped the fruits of labour during the course of this one year.

I have never thought I would survive BMT especially the 7 day field camp.

Hell! Never even imagine I would ever wear a beret or don that yellow scarf on my neck for my SISPEC POP Parade.

From the beginning, I gathered knowledge regarding National Service through those who have been through or were currently undergoing NS then.

Horrifying, inspiring… volumes of stories were told and some managed to stick on the edges of my mind in mini fragments.

Those stories I carried with me into TEKONG AND PASIR LABA.

I guess, only when you have experienced it for yourself can you define and prove whether those stories are true or mere exaggerations to make hearts and minds insecure.

Well, it has been a beautiful journey thus far especially with great BMT & SISPEC mates to share your tears, joy and laughter with.

I bet if I was to go to my BMT and BSLC/ASLC bunk a flood of memories will bring back to those memorable days as a recruit/trainee.

A life without responsibilities. A life less cumbersome.

Till today as I stay alive to complete the remainder of my NS experience, I thank God for allowing me to cross my comfort zone and learn to work with people – i.e those who use to look down on me.

Some memories are best treasured unsaid.
Recorded and played in my mind.
For a restricted audience.
Only for my own entertainment.

So if you were to see me smile and laugh out of a sudden, just know that I am reliving back the crazy moments I had with my mates.



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| 11/26/2007 07:41:00 PM |


Saturday, November 24, 2007
Amateur Lover

Amateur Lover

After many rejected calls and unreplied sms, I’ve decided to pity my old friend and gave him a call. He wasn’t please. I can’t blame him since I’ve been too busy to be a friend to him. I only have only myself to fault.

We had a nice chat after all the apologies and excuses to why I was unable to spend time with him... He updated me of his life.

You know that warm tingly feeling you have inside when someone shares with you his love story. The feeling escalated gradually as he unfolds his story. He sounded so happy, genuinely happy. And he described the love and relationship he has to be pure and innocent.

I wish I could describe or even write everything he said but I believe no description of mine is able to paint a picture of his love for that girl.

It has been awhile hasn’t it? To fall in love. When was the last time I fell in love? I mean really fall in love?

In his own words he said, “If I had a choice between spending a lifetime with an angel in heaven or overcome all odds just to make this girl happy, I will pick the latter.”

He is blinded by love. He believes he has met his soul mate.

Who am I to judge his heartfelt desires?

I wish I had someone loving me just like that…

I feel as if I am far behind in this race in search of true love. My friends have completed lap by lap and I am still an amateur, profusely tyring to finish this one lap.

But again I have myself to blame for this matter. The last time I got someone, I left. Cowardice. I was unable to commit as the demands to fulfill my other worldly desires outweighed my need for true love.

And now I complain not having anyone to love… I deserve to be shot.

Curly, you are missed.

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| 11/24/2007 11:52:00 PM |

So Near Yet So Far...

So Near Yet So Far...

I came close to my much-desired-SENTOSA-moment! I met the cousins for some supposed fun at SENTOSA. It was Changi General Hospital’s family day. But before I even continue to complain, let me just share what I had to go through prior to this event.

I had only 2 hours of sleep. And I had one of the worst guard duty experiences. I refuse to even talk about it. But I hate officers with no sense of respect for other people. Fullstop.

And so I arrive with jeans and shoes TO SENTOSA. I know. I was wrongly dress for that day. And they started to tease me.

To cut the story short, I spent the time sleeping. Yup. That was how pathetic I was. We did not even get to ride the LUGE.

Lesson learnt: Never go to SENTOSA unprepared!


So near yet so far.

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| 11/24/2007 08:57:00 PM |


Friday, November 23, 2007
A Formosan Experience...

A Formosan Experience...

Taiwan... Just as my feet came into contact with its soil, memories of last April came flooding in. Previous experience of my time in the island reminded me of the pain, the joy and satisfaction of grueling exercises to earn this bloody chevron.

Now this island welcomed me with grey skies, unsure of what is lies before me as a commander. I hated the responsibility but I welcome the challenge.

I shall not go in depth about the many exercises but there is one thing I have to share…


The six men under me were an astounding bunch. I saw them in a different light and I appreciated their every effort. They allowed me to lead. They courageously fought with me when shrubs and lalang stood in their way. They gave me strength with their loud response to my commands and their agile movement deserves nothing but the utmost compliment. I am proud of them and I am humbled by the faith they have entrusted onto me. All were equally good… All special in their own way. (Future entries will have in-depth description of them)



A Formosan Experience: R&R (Rest & Relax)

I wish I had planned my R & R better. Should have included Bhas* into my plans. But nonetheless I bonded fine with Naeem*. (Refer to glossary)

Ximending, Shilin, Wufenpu, LeoFoo Safari Park, Windows On China
What’s new? In fact, there is nothing.

As I shuffled through the streets of all those places, I reminisced my trainee days with my bunch of friends. I remembered how I breezed through the shops with my ‘boleh-tahan’ mandarin. You don’t know how much I have improved ok! Still recount a moment I had with a ‘xiao-jie’ who asked me how am I able to speak mandarin. I simply answered, “I’m Singaporean. My dad is Malay and my mum is Chinese. I can understand mandarin but I can only speak a few phrases in Mandarin” She was amazed and I purposely said all that to get some sort of compliment. Obviously it worked. Haha!

I didn’t shop much. I just wanted to explore. Taipei 101, I would say, was a dream come true. During those SISPEC days we weren’t allowed to even enter the building. Naeem and I paid $450 NT to take the fastest lift in the world only to get a splitting headache from the speed.

But that was not going to stop me from the experience.

It was not new to me. I’ve been up the Petronas Twin Towers and Eiffel Tower. I’m numb to the height. What I enjoy was the wind, the strong forceful wind that hindered me from moving forward. It was a great photo opportunity!

I felt so free. It was as if the wind carried all my troubles away. I wanted to enjoy every moment of it, so when no one else was watching me I imagined as if I was doing a music video. Haha! Thank God no one saw me. It could have been in Gotcha! for all I know. Bhas should have been there! We could have relived the ‘Titanic’ experience.

I really can’t say which Formosan experience was the best. Both experiences were beautiful… both worth a space in my cluttered mind. :)

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| 11/23/2007 12:58:00 AM |


Thursday, November 22, 2007
A break...

A Break...

I am surprise that I decide to come back into this realm after so long. I guess I need a channel to express myself and an archive of my thoughts. I feel like a virgin, trying out all the functions Blogger has in store for me. I’ve totally lost touch with my html skills and I am too lazy to restart. So I guess I am going to keep a simple blog and gradually add new tools to spice it up.

So here goes…I am in need of a break! I believe many of my comrades and bestfriends would have heard me say this a thousand times. I need a break. I feel as if I’ve been on a endless rollercoaster ride and every time we reach the control station, no one is there to hit the stop button.

I yearn for a day when I am cozily tucked in a sofa with my book in my hand and coffee by my side. There has to be a small coffee table. And oooh what would be great is the woody rustic scent you get when you go into an antique or furniture shop… And to break the monotony some café music would be nice…

A day in Sentosa with friends could also be a great alternative. I’ve always wanted to trek the trails of the island and explore the many attractions they have. The LUGE is a must. The last time I rode that vehicle, it was with the girls. It was great fun! I want my Sentosa trip!

Oh well… You keep whining and yearning but at the end of the day, you can never run away from all the responsibilities bestowed upon you… bullocks! I hate life unable to control my schedule.

Will have an update about Taiwan soon…

I think I did well for someone who hasn’t blog for a while. Hehe! Smiles :P

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| 11/22/2007 06:40:00 PM |


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